This from Proverbs 31 ministries.  Today, more than ever, I needed a reminder that His grace is sufficient.  Gracie bet'not be chewing no holes through my cheek...but sometimes, I do want to yell.  In fact, sometimes I do lol.  This motherhood thing isn't more than I can handle.  (I'll have to come back and check this blog a year from now when I'll have a 2 year old and a 6 month old on my hands lol).  Le sigh.  Deep breath in and blow one out.  One.day.at.a.time.

"To all my young mama friends,
I struggled so much when my kids were little.

 

People would tell me to appreciate these little years for they pass by in a blink. I’d go home blinking my little eyeballs to death wishing they would pass a little quicker.

But I must say, God used those years to grow me and stretch me more spiritually than anything else I’ve ever been through. Even when you only get little snippets of time with God, His lessons are there moment by moment.

Just the fact that I survived my first daughter is evidence of God’s amazing grace working in my life. She once bit my face leaving me with a hole - A HOLE! - in the side of my cheek. With everything in me, I wanted to march her back to that hospital that aided me in birthing her and demand some DNA testing. I was certain I’d brought home the wrong child.

That is until my mama told me she’d been praying for years for me to birth someone just like me. Ahem. Payback for her was pure bliss.

Anyhow, moment by moment I survived. Life did not pass me by. Opportunity did not pass me by. And my ministry was right there waiting for me when I changed that last diaper.

Those years where I only did little people ministry within my home worked out some kinks between me and Lord and perfectly prepared my heart to be so much more real and authentic when I stepped back on the speaking stage. I came to realize my desperate need for God like never before.

I came to realize my desperate need for grace like never before. I came to realize that even a rule-following girl like me can be pushed to cuss. And then I realized even more grace than before.

Hold on sweet sister. There is nothing wrong with you when you feel like you love those little people but some days you don’t like them very much. It’s okay. We’ve all been there. This too shall pass. And when it does you’ll actually miss parts of it. And you’ll actually not miss some parts of it too!"
- Lysa TerKeurst

i don't really have much to say these days.

Grace.
Much grace.

I don't know where this fear came from.  Well I know where fear comes from of course but not sure why so much anxiety right now.

In 4 hours I'm turning over the keys to the first home we purchased as a married couple.  This was our first big leap of faith.

Today marks a day of great transition.  I'm moving out of the city I've called home for the past seven years...a city I have grown to love and hate.  Does that even out to just like? Lol.

Bishop recently looked at me and said, "Daughter, you handle transition well.  That's just what you do."  I chalked it up to one of those, "speaks those thing a that aren't as if they were" moments and kept it moving.

My husband keeps telling me, "Don't get scared now."  I'm not scared.  Just learning how to embrace all that's new without holding on to the past.

Let's go!

Paths.

Psalms 23 & 25.

God change my mind about everything.

My value and who I am.

My marriage.

My motherhood and parenting.

My relationship with you.

I need a perspective shift.

My mind has been a hot mess as of late.

Help my mind God.

When water gives you heartburnnnnnn lol.  Lawd.

this post was going to be mopey and negative.  And then I erased it.  Ain't nobody got time for that.  Keep it moving.

Boom.