cynthia's right...i'm not doing this ever again.

one time and one time only.

so if i only get one...why not make it right?

Lord....this is COMPLETELY out of my hands.

have Your way and meet every need exceedingly and abundantly above all that we can ask or think according to the power that's working in me.

so we wait patiently KNOWING that you're going to do EVERYTHING YOU PROMISED.

because He who promised is FAITHFUL and shall do it.

we've have sown in faith.  we're tithe givers and never withold from You what is Yours.

WOOO!  Expecting GREATNESS!
in Jesus' name.

when we have a daughter and she gets married, she won't have to go through this.

she'll have someone there to foot the bill and to go with her to pick out the little things...like a veil or a garter.

so when the spirit of discouragement comes upon me, i have to bind it and remember that we are laying the foundation for generations to come.  our union is laying the foundation for an inheritance to be left behind for future generations of our family....we are the building blocks....

we are the building blocks.

and its getting tight.

real tight.

don't like the melody of that maurette brown clark (clark brown...whatever her name is) song, but the lyrics are real right now...

the harder it get, the harder i praise, i know...my victory is on the way....and it's in my praise.

faith stretched like it's never been stretched before.

but all things really do work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose.

it's hard but i can't give up.

funny thing is...i know there will be more difficult things ahead if this is only the first test.  greater things we will have to believe for.  greater miracles.  greater healings.  greater works.

so this is the measure of what we have been tested with initially.  that only means greater is to come.

and chains shall be broken.

i generational curses shall be lifted.

and the yoke shall be destroyed because the annointing....

just have to remember to count it all joy....

it shall pass and we shall be on the other side of the turbulent river, able to look back at what we walked across by faith.

YC

I have less than a month to be married.

And I just had chicken fingers and french fries.

Whaaaaaaat am I doing with my life?

YC

i feel like i'm being left out there right now.

meeehhhh....whatever.

I've had too much today....

Guess ill start agaim tomorrow.

#sigh