sometimes i feel like i'm floating along.

sometimes.

detached from everything.

existing.

in neutral.

*blank stare*

good night.

tomorrow, i try again.

altogether lovely.

altogether worthy.

altogether wonderful to me.

so here i am to worship.

just thought i'd put that up there before this post. this is going to be a short one. ron just stepped out to get some food. an old student of mine, Dominique, is coming with her son Adrian to get her maternity and family portraits taken. i really appreciate it. hopefully, i can use some of them for my portfolio and practice on them.

i pray that God give me the artistic and creative vision and helps me define a unique style that will attract more customers. i edited some in-studio pictures that ron took of me and they came out very nicely. i certainly don't have the school/book knowledge of graphic design or photography, but i pray that the Holy Spirit give me the insight i need, the skill, and the know-how to do these things. i know it won't come by magic, but i pray that He strategically put me around the people who do...or send me to places where i can get the resources and then i'll put my hand to work with what He's given. i'll seek out those things which can help me.

i envision this business taking us all around the world and me telling my testimony that i had no formal training. i envision this business taking us around the world...people seeing the art and being amazed at the raw images i capture of people. this camera is not my own...this camera is only a tool to help others see people for who they really are. Father, i pray that you give me a spirit of excellence in this business and that my spirit remain excellent. let me not be weary in well-doing. even though now it seems one way, that is not how it will end up. this business will be successful. we will have more clients than we know what to do with. i've sown seed into good ground and Father you said you would provide seed to the sower. Father, i'm asking that the skills i need, help me acquire them quickly. the people i need to know...Father i bind up the fear that causes me to shy away or to shut my mouth.

the Holy Spirit has been dealing with me on getting to know people. this is a referral business. people spread the word about you to other people. i need to know PEOPLE. outside of my church and my job, who do i KNOW? and seriously....if i'm supposed to minister to people and spread the Word of God, i can't do so in my little circle. each week, i need to purpose myself to meet at least two-three new people and tell them about myself. not only that, but purpose myself to stay in contact with them or follow up with them. i can't make an impact in my apartment. i can't make the impact God wants me to sitting in my bedroom. i can't do it. i've got to go OUT to reach people. the enemy has tried to use isolation to cut me off. it's no wonder that when i've felt my loneliest, i've also felt my most depressed. i'd go home, eat, cut the lights off, and go to sleep. however, TODAY is a new day! i purpose to meet people. i purpose to look them in their eyes and stand with confidence before ANYONE who i meet. God said i am the head and not the tail. i am ABOVE and not beneath. i am MORE than a conqueror and i can do all things through Him who strengthens me. He didn't give me a spirit of fear but one of love, of power, and of a sound mind.

i feel myself breaking forth. i feel myself enlarging my territory and claiming victoriously, the things God has set for me.

thank you LORD for what you're doing.

i bless your Holy name and give your praise.

in Jesus' name.

AMEN!

i definitely wrote a whole entry subconsciously last night. lol.

it's love.

let's get back to our first love

because this is love.

is this love? is this love? is this love? is this love that i'm feeling?

oh, why yes it is. why did you even had to ask.

you don't have to ask.

because when you know, you just...

well, you just know.

i know that i know that i know that i know

that He's the one for me....

that he's the one for me.

that He's with us always

as we walk with Him.

Simms, i'm falling asleep at the laptop right now. but i love you.

know that.

good morning Father.

good morning Son.

good morning Holy Spirit.

good morning.