Im looking at the calendar at july 29, 2013 thinking how much different it's going to be. How much different it's going to be from july 29, 2011...from july 29, 2012....so much more different. So....wow.

Dont u feel this shifting thats taking place? So many wonderful things about to take place.

Wow.

Pulling those thoughts into captivity and making them obey Jesus Christ.

I just want more of Your word so my mind will be just like Jesus'.  And I thank You Lord that my thoughts are covered by the Blood of Jesus and even though im not perfect You still love me. Holy Spirit help me mind. Renew me in the spirit of my mind. Help me not to be conformed to this world but transformed by the renewing of my mind.

Help me. Please.

Man oh man. Oh man. Ill just go to sleep now. For real.

Sometimes, it is good to just sit in silence.

Selah.

Father.

sometimes you just have to let some things be.

i'm going to bed at peace.

good night world.

:-)

But what is it to kiss you?
But what is it to touch you?
But what is it to feel you?
But what is it to taste you?
But what is it to desire you?
But what is it to melt for you?
But what is it to long for you?
Without the promise of your love?
Because I feel the devotion of your heart
Sincere, pure, and potent
Pulling me towards you and
Gently unfolding back the layers
Of the woman I claim to be.
But you.
You warm me externally and
Inside too there is something that
You have done
To expose the truth.
The vulnerabilty of exposure
Does not threaten but just shows that
I've longed to be protected.
And that's what you want go do.
And so I will let you
Ease your way in with the least resistance
Because I am open
And as you come in
Let my warmth overtake you
Feel at home in here
Dont move
Pulsing flesh encapsulates you
And all of you begins to move to the same beat.
Two become one
You're grafted in.
This is only the start.
So welcome and
Be at home
In my heart.

Because right now I need to get a whole grip on my mind. I need to be  renewed in the spirit of my mind.

I desire control over my thoughts. They are all over the place right now. Strongholds that im allowing the enemy to occupy.

Time to set the reset button.

Ugh.

Sometimes u just need to be quiet.

And thats what I did yesterday...

So yes...this is the fast that You have chosen for me?

Did I not ask you to reveal in me those things that are not pleasing to You?

It is Wednesday.

Lets proceed.

Thank You for grace and mercy. New every single morning.

This time.

I often dream about being in your arms.
I often find myself remembering your scent.

My nostrils inhaling your essence.

The oil of your skin.

Take in your manly presence.

But I know that as the flame becomes a fire.

To wait for you is a present.

A very gift from God...

That He should be pleased when

We finally meet.

Again.

because on days like this...i know there has to be something more than what i'm doing right now...

let me be thankful...and with prayer and supplication make my requests known unto God.

this work bores me....coming here every morning bores me....but it pays my bills...

Lord, help me not to be stuck on this wheel forever....because this isn't life.

and please don't make it seem as if i'm not grateful....

show me myself and what i can do to make it better.  what can i do to love this?  can i choose to love this?

ugh.

ugh.

ugh.

ugh.

*looks out the window*

praise God from whom ALL blessings flow.

for the Lord is good and His mercy endureth forever.

and so how fitting it is that 2013, the best year of my life yet, would begin in church and end in the comfort of my bed...alone and at peace with hope.

in 2012, i learned much and realized there is so much more left to be done.  2013 will be the year of foundation and establishment.  a year of great favor in all that i do.  i am thankful for this season.  we are walking into our season.

power.

prosperity.

all because of greater time spent in His presence.  thank you Lord for what you are about to do.

arise and shine for your light has come!

thank you that the light will be seen upon me.  your glory will be seen upon me.

Father, thank you.

you have made all things new.

ALL THINGS new.

all things.

thank you.  thank you.  thank you.

YC