Maaaaannnn...

You just get to a point when you say "God, your will be done."

Innocence revealed
Innocence renewed
Everytime I look into your eyes
That penetrate my innermost thoughts
You say, "I feel you."
I say, "I know."
And yes. I do know.
And you know too.

Sometimes...u just gotta pray.

Seriously.

Just pray.

My period has been such a struggle these past two days. Just woke up from a dream where I was fasting for two weeks from outside purchased food. All of my food was either raw or I prepared it at home.

Lord. Let that commence today.

I never ever want to say goodbye....

All of our conversations, all of your sweet pages...they're never lorbg enough...

A gift from...Yvonne

this is feeling in me can't be defined....

i know
and
you know
it's real
i know we write love songs
words that rhyme
in melody and time
i've been loving you so very long
this feeling in me
can't be defined....
no one
no one's gonna love me
i can search the whole world and never find you
i'm sticking with you

this is just to be vulnerable and transparent.

God.  It is my sincere desire to have friends.  i don't need many.  just a few good ones.  women my age who love the Lord and will support me in my quest for You. Women in whom I can confide and will help me with this walk.  a sister in Christ.

someone who will come over and take walks with me.  someone who will trade recipes with me and bake cookies with me.  someone who will watch my kids when ron and i want to have a date night.

i know that all things work together for the good of those who love you and are called according to your purpose.  and yes i love you.  and yes i am called according to your purpose.

so this time is a time to be this way.

so this time is a time of preparation.

perhaps if you gave me a sister, i wouldn't even know what to do with her.  how to treat her.  how to love her.

so i ask, knowing that you are able to provide and no good thing will you withhold from those who walk upright before you.  i walk upright before you.  so hear me.

and sometimes, this process of shedding off the old stings.  i am reminded on nights like this even though there is no one physically around...You are always present.  and i am thankful.  and i know you hear my prayer.

thank you.

Yvonne

learning what it means to stand still and see the salvation of the Lord.

because everyone is watching to see what we're going to do?  whether or not we're crazy?  what kind of faith is this.

thursday morning, i woke up straight praising God and speaking because i believe now....not only do i believe but i understand where we've been (study-wise) and why we've had to go there.

i heard, "by the power vested in me, i now pronounce you man and wife".  only someone who has been ordained has the authority to pronounce what God wants (marriage).  if you don't have the authority, those words are in vain.  Bishop on Wednesday night preached that because of this breakthrough fast, we have the authority TRULY because of what Jesus has already done.  however, he had to preach on faith as preparation for the breakthrough because if you don't believe that you have authority, how can you exercise it?  that is why the Word says, "we believe, therefore we speak".  we have been given the keys to the kingdom.....whatever we say, will come to pass.....we have the authority and that is why the enemy has been fighting so hard to come against our face...(for the kingdom of God suffers violence, but the violent take it by force)....we have the authority and because of that, we have the right to take what the enemy is trying to snatch away from us....but that's the thing...he can't do it, so he'll try to make it seem like it doesn't belong to us.  if you don't believe it belongs to you, you'll never have what God intends for you.  WOW.

back to my wedding example.  the officiant has to pronounce.  they have to make a proclamation.  they have to open their mouth and declare and decree the the union is so.  if they don't do that, there is no union.  nothing exists.  that person has been given the authority, and because of that, they are charged to pronounce that two people are becoming one.  so just like the officiant, we have been given authority in the heavenly realms above all the power of the enemy.  and because we believe it, we speak it.  we declare and decree it because it is so.  we loose and we bind because it is so.

Kinda feel like other stuff (business) is on the backburner.....

Bleh.

Just keep going and work whats in my hand now.

Guess that's my fault.

psalm 116.

Comparison is the death of contentment. So why do I find myself doing it so often?

Im 25....ive done alot...buy I dont want to peak at 25....there has to be wayyyyy more than this...

And sometimes I feel....blah...it doesnt matter what I feel....the kingdom of Gkd doesnt run on sentiment but on power. And thats that.

i am truly blessed of the Lord.

He is good and his mercy endures forever.

who am i that He is mindful of me?

rainy days.

rainy rainy rainy rainy rainy days.

rainy dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys.   rainy rainy rainy rainy rainy rainy rainy rainy rainy days.........

rainy rainy rainy rainy.

my body wants to crawl under some warm sheets.  be wrapped up in warmth.  and fall asleep.

powering through until four o'clock and hoping that Tann can take this stuff to Naeemah's house.  when i get home...i just want to sleep.

Gonna grab a bite to eat and sit on the drive in silence.

whew.

Jesus.

Phillippians 4:4-9

guard my heart and my mind today Lord.  please.

the day has now begun.  let's go conquer.

YC

God smiled on me when He chose you to be mine...how can i define these thoughts of mine...before i say "i......"? "I Do" by T. Daval

before i say "i...."

yes indeed.

God has really blessed me beyond what i could ever imagine.  i remember when Pastor Steph prayed for me...."a man who will knock your socks off..."....

well...that's what God gave me and much more.

last night, we bowled.  had dinner.  spent time in each other's company.  a cool date night.

and i looked into his eyes and he professed his love for me...like he does everyday...he professed that he would not stop...that i had not seen anything like it....the world has never seen anything like it....

the world has never seen anything like it.