when we have a daughter and she gets married, she won't have to go through this.

she'll have someone there to foot the bill and to go with her to pick out the little things...like a veil or a garter.

so when the spirit of discouragement comes upon me, i have to bind it and remember that we are laying the foundation for generations to come.  our union is laying the foundation for an inheritance to be left behind for future generations of our family....we are the building blocks....

we are the building blocks.

and its getting tight.

real tight.

don't like the melody of that maurette brown clark (clark brown...whatever her name is) song, but the lyrics are real right now...

the harder it get, the harder i praise, i know...my victory is on the way....and it's in my praise.

faith stretched like it's never been stretched before.

but all things really do work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose.

it's hard but i can't give up.

funny thing is...i know there will be more difficult things ahead if this is only the first test.  greater things we will have to believe for.  greater miracles.  greater healings.  greater works.

so this is the measure of what we have been tested with initially.  that only means greater is to come.

and chains shall be broken.

i generational curses shall be lifted.

and the yoke shall be destroyed because the annointing....

just have to remember to count it all joy....

it shall pass and we shall be on the other side of the turbulent river, able to look back at what we walked across by faith.

YC

I have less than a month to be married.

And I just had chicken fingers and french fries.

Whaaaaaaat am I doing with my life?

YC

i feel like i'm being left out there right now.

meeehhhh....whatever.

I've had too much today....

Guess ill start agaim tomorrow.

#sigh

aaaannndddd one more.

i don't usually do this but....my style icon....along with Michelle Obama.  i'm like 1/3 Michelle, 1/3 Kerry, and 1/3 Olivia Pope (style...not all of the other foolishness!)

http://photos.essence.com/galleries/style-evolution-kerry-washington

I guess she didn't like the pictures.

Art is so personal.  It's a part of me because I created it. Guess I won't try to take it personally.

Oh well. On to the next, right?

YC

There are things that are about to happen, places where I'm about to walk, positions that I'm about to take, territories that I'm abiut to possess.  The intial feeling of being overwhelemed tries to rise up in my gut, but the Holy Spirit says be like Mary.  When He told her she was with child without having been with a man, she said be it unto me even as you have spoken it.

So Lord. Not my will be done but yours Lord.  I am about to become a wife and a mother.  I am being positioned for greatness.  For my destiny. For it has been prophesied that there is great grace upon my life. Great grace means great callings.  O Lord that I may rekain rooted and grounded in you as Christ is bring formed in me.  For I do not want to be the gifted unsubmitted but I want to be sumbitted to your will and your way. Let me discern now how you want to use me. In Jesus' name.

Amen.

And u know.

All in all, this has been a good week. Taxing...but good. Im all the better for it.

Onward.  Onward.  Onward.

Time to put away the macbook

And do...u know...work.

and here i am once again...at a crossroads...

40 minutes...

2 presentations to develop and deliver...

and i'm sitting here staring at photo portrait blogs....

Lord....

sigh.

doors.

let me get to work.

when you know better, you do better.

i knew better.  i didn't do better.

this one is for The Blood of Jesus.

for real.