There remaineth a rest for me. For me!!!!
Rest. Reign. Rule. Even in the midst of my enemies for God is making them all a footstool. Wow.
So this morning and today, the only working I'm doing is laboring to enter into his rest.
18 September 2014
17 September 2014
"don't you know that faith is practical
that's what makes it so wonderful
you gotta believe...."-- from "Here We Go" by Aja Graydon Dantler of Kindred the Family Soul
i woke up this morning refreshed if you will. more so silent than anything else. just listening. trying to hear for the voice of God which is usually quiet, and still. amazing how the same one who literally has moved major landforms (you know, like rivers and stuff), speaks so quietly.
so i just listened. i talked first with honesty. i told Him that i don't know what i'm doing. He told me that's ok.
He told me that i've been doing this faith thing all wrong...backwards if you will. trying and trying and trying until i couldn't do it myself AND then relying upon God as a last resort is not faith. faith is the first step. it's natural and not coerced. it's a state of mind. it's an automatic response or reaction to unknown circumstances.
He told me that is why He said, "the just shall live by faith" and to "walk by faith and not by sight." no one thinks about living...we just do. i'm not counting my breaths as i breathe them...it just happens because that is what i was meant to do. i don't think about the steps i take as i walk. i am not looking down and counting the cracks on the sidewalk or tracking how many steps i take in the day. i just get up and go, knowing that my legs will get me there. the same with faith, He told me. faith is natural and not coerced. it's not a last resort. it's the first resort. it's the automatic response to apply to every situation.
believing God is in every situation and circumstance, despite being unable to see it. if i could see it, i suppose it wouldn't be faith.
walking is easy. living is just what i do. faith is....
so i guess i've received the answer to an earlier post's questions about abraham, wondering if he ever waivered or doubted. he didn't. he just had faith.
that's what makes it so wonderful
you gotta believe...."-- from "Here We Go" by Aja Graydon Dantler of Kindred the Family Soul
i woke up this morning refreshed if you will. more so silent than anything else. just listening. trying to hear for the voice of God which is usually quiet, and still. amazing how the same one who literally has moved major landforms (you know, like rivers and stuff), speaks so quietly.
so i just listened. i talked first with honesty. i told Him that i don't know what i'm doing. He told me that's ok.
He told me that i've been doing this faith thing all wrong...backwards if you will. trying and trying and trying until i couldn't do it myself AND then relying upon God as a last resort is not faith. faith is the first step. it's natural and not coerced. it's a state of mind. it's an automatic response or reaction to unknown circumstances.
He told me that is why He said, "the just shall live by faith" and to "walk by faith and not by sight." no one thinks about living...we just do. i'm not counting my breaths as i breathe them...it just happens because that is what i was meant to do. i don't think about the steps i take as i walk. i am not looking down and counting the cracks on the sidewalk or tracking how many steps i take in the day. i just get up and go, knowing that my legs will get me there. the same with faith, He told me. faith is natural and not coerced. it's not a last resort. it's the first resort. it's the automatic response to apply to every situation.
believing God is in every situation and circumstance, despite being unable to see it. if i could see it, i suppose it wouldn't be faith.
walking is easy. living is just what i do. faith is....
so i guess i've received the answer to an earlier post's questions about abraham, wondering if he ever waivered or doubted. he didn't. he just had faith.
16 September 2014
perplexed but not in despair....
that's the Word to meditate upon....
yes, some things hurt like hell....but i have to keep pushing, even though i don't like it.
can't default and draw back. in that You take no pleasure.
and even though i'm angry, God, i'm asking you to remove the anger.
and even though i'm hurt, God, i'm asking you to remove the hurt.
and even though i'm perplexed, God, i'm asking you to give me understanding and wisdom.
and even though i feel like i'm all alone, God, i'm remembering that You said You would never leave me or forsake me.
when no one understands, You understand.
when i feel invisible, You see me.
You know my name. You knew me from my mother's womb. You said You would never leave me or forsake me. You know all of the plans that You have for me. They are plans for my good and not for evil. You know every hair on my head. Jesus, You're sitting at the right hand of the Father making intercession for me because You have felt all that I have felt. The chastisement of my peace was upon You and by Your stripes I am healed.
that's the Word to meditate upon....
yes, some things hurt like hell....but i have to keep pushing, even though i don't like it.
can't default and draw back. in that You take no pleasure.
and even though i'm angry, God, i'm asking you to remove the anger.
and even though i'm hurt, God, i'm asking you to remove the hurt.
and even though i'm perplexed, God, i'm asking you to give me understanding and wisdom.
and even though i feel like i'm all alone, God, i'm remembering that You said You would never leave me or forsake me.
when no one understands, You understand.
when i feel invisible, You see me.
You know my name. You knew me from my mother's womb. You said You would never leave me or forsake me. You know all of the plans that You have for me. They are plans for my good and not for evil. You know every hair on my head. Jesus, You're sitting at the right hand of the Father making intercession for me because You have felt all that I have felt. The chastisement of my peace was upon You and by Your stripes I am healed.
14 September 2014
Ok. So I may has been a little upset on the last post. Disregard my frustration. Just me and my lil bowling ball of love all up in my womb.
In other news...Queenie Mae got saved a couple of weeks back. When mommy was here in Philly, grandma had gotten sick and landed in the hospital twice-once for surgery and then on an emergency. Is it because she had clotting in her lungs. I guess she saw the light because when Pastor William and some misnisters costed her in the hospital she asked cried out for salvation and asked what must I do to be saved? She confessed Jesus Christ as her Lord and savior that day and a week later she was baptized in water. If there's hope for my grandmother at 70 then there's hope for my father at 64. My grandmother who I barely talked to once a year....we've talked twice in a month. What is that about?!!! Look at God. Wow. Restoration and healing is taking place in my family. Restoration and healing. And I have to keep believing for my father that he too will surrender and stop being so obstinate.
And so I continue to pray that God send men full of the Holy Ghost and power to talk to him...laborers with the specific task of reaping the harvest...someone that my father will listen to...and God will do it because He is faithful. My grandmother is only a sign of the things to come.
In other news...Queenie Mae got saved a couple of weeks back. When mommy was here in Philly, grandma had gotten sick and landed in the hospital twice-once for surgery and then on an emergency. Is it because she had clotting in her lungs. I guess she saw the light because when Pastor William and some misnisters costed her in the hospital she asked cried out for salvation and asked what must I do to be saved? She confessed Jesus Christ as her Lord and savior that day and a week later she was baptized in water. If there's hope for my grandmother at 70 then there's hope for my father at 64. My grandmother who I barely talked to once a year....we've talked twice in a month. What is that about?!!! Look at God. Wow. Restoration and healing is taking place in my family. Restoration and healing. And I have to keep believing for my father that he too will surrender and stop being so obstinate.
And so I continue to pray that God send men full of the Holy Ghost and power to talk to him...laborers with the specific task of reaping the harvest...someone that my father will listen to...and God will do it because He is faithful. My grandmother is only a sign of the things to come.
11 September 2014
another month of this....OMG.
help me Jesus. i'm so serious right now.
i'm big, fat, my body hurts, i can't breathe, i'm not sleeping well, water gives me heartburn, i'm constipated, all seats are uncomfortable....not to mention i now have stretch marks on my stomach.
what. the. fuck?
the one thing i've actually been looking forward to...who the heck knows what's going on with that. and when i do ask about it, i get cussed at.
i'm over it.
OVER IT.
boom.
help me Jesus. i'm so serious right now.
i'm big, fat, my body hurts, i can't breathe, i'm not sleeping well, water gives me heartburn, i'm constipated, all seats are uncomfortable....not to mention i now have stretch marks on my stomach.
what. the. fuck?
the one thing i've actually been looking forward to...who the heck knows what's going on with that. and when i do ask about it, i get cussed at.
i'm over it.
OVER IT.
boom.
08 September 2014
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