a Monday morning GEM!

bing!

it's pretty outside.  i sat outside for a few minutes during my prep and allowed the breeze to blow.

spring is definitely here.  yesterday, ron and i sat at "our spot" near kelly drive. 

man oh man.  my baby is back from the mountain!  he showed up at my doorstep at midnight, bearing gifts.  godiva chocolate-covered strawberries, goodies from sephora, flowers, AND....drum roll please....Jill Scott tix for her performance at the Mann Music Center on June 23rd.  now THAT BOY GOOD! lol. 

he could have come without the gifts...it felt SOOOOOOOOOO amazing to hold him in my arms.  the first thing i did when i saw him was hug him TIGHTLY!  i can't imagine what my life would be if he wasn't here and i'm looking forward to what God is going to do in is and with us as we form a union.

yesterday was just amazing to me.  so much peace.  answered questions.  God prophetically moving and speaking.  wow.  as soon as Bishop began to deliver the message, i couldn't hold back the tears.  He was wounded for MY transgression and bruised for MY iniquities and the chastimsement of MY peace was upon Him...and by His stripes I was and AM healed....but who hath believed the report?

wow.  Roman's 10 brought salvation into FULL perspective.  i knew from the moment He started preaching i needed to go up for prayer.  wow.  the Holy Spirit used Bishop to tell me that i have the gift of miracles working.  however, to first tell people about this, i have to believe God for a miracle to happen in my own life.  WOW.  WOW.  WOW.  think of the most seemingly impossible thing that God can do for you right now and BELIEVE HIM for it to happen....and it will.

WOW.  WOW.  WOW.

well...that pretty much answered everything i needed to hear.  this comes after Pastor Thomas's pow wow with me last week after prayer..."Now Yvonne...the Holy Spirit showed you to me...He said you're getting yourself worked up over this wedding....stop having anxiety about this but make your requests known to God with prayer and supplication so that you can have peace...".

WOW.

God.  we need a miracle.  we can't do this on our own.  this has to be YOU showing yourself mightily and strongly in a way that we could never imagine....and God...i'm making this personal.  i need you to show yourself to me in a way that i've never seen before.  so God, i'm believing you for MORE than enough money to create this beautiful wedding at the horticulture center, debt-free, stress free AND the money to set up our new lives together (new home, deposit, furniture).  debt-free. 

i see us, after all of the toasts have been given and we have to respond and thank everyone...GIVING GLORY and PRAISE TO GOD and testifying on what He has done.  that the wedding or the union was not of ourselves...but a a miraculous wonder and sign of God's grace.  this favor was unmerited and if people would only believe and confess, they too would be an automatic recipient of His favor. 

i love you Lord and i know that you're going to show up in a MIGHTY WAY!

this hector lavoe pandora station....

has made a dull evening into a...well....an embarrassing one if anyone was actually taping me salsa dancing in my bedroom.

kinda want to learn how to salsa dance and let some of these inhibitions go...not in a ridiculous hedonistic way...in a way that allows me to be comfortable with my body and with myself...and yes...with my awkwardness...lol.

just thankful right now....

i left church not wanting to hear the word "wedding"...everyone is a coordinator...everyone has input...everyone wants to make something...everyone is a designer...everyone is a diva...

*throws hands up in the air*

now i REALLY know why people elope.  bump the money...people are O.O.C...."out of control".

Jesus.

for real. like...Jesus....sometimes i have to call on your name because people will drive you up the whole wall...if you let them.

do you have a venue?
do you have a date?
do you have bridesmaids?
who's in the wedding party?
where are ya'll honeymooning?
what are the colors?
what flowers are ya'll having?
do you have a planner?
$135 a plate?  that's expensive?
vanish wants to dance....olivia would like to...
i'm making the cake.

what?

look at my face....

0___o

lol.

*in my jay-z voice*....can i live? lol

i'm having dinner with Elder Monica on Thursday.  she's sane and level headed and it seems we have a similar style.  classy.  elegant.  no feathers. (smh).  she has a calming effect.  i need some folks with some taste on the design team for this.  does that make me a bad person?  of course not.

between deac. annell and this cake...look...smh.  her cake is dry LORD....like a brick...and you know how i am about food....imma need that joint to be moist...

maybe another reason why i'm a bit agitated is because...

1. i don't really like to be in the spotlight
2. i don't really like people up in my business
3. i've never done anything like before.

sigh.

babe. our wedding is going to be glorious.
babe. i just want to marry you.
babe. i'm excited for our life together.
babe. the wedding is months of planning in the making....but i'm more excited about what happens after the guests leave.
babe.  i love you.

ok.  that is all.

can you Skype me at midnight?

Jesus.

kjn;kgdsnoi'sgon'SDGNk'dg"LKSDGVNGVOENIfweniGN IGVein vsINSVGWineinedvfnif

it is now 3:09. 

that is all.

God is still God. That doesn't change

God, i thank you for sending your Holy Spirit to engage with Ron....to lead him and guide him and protect him.

God, you're still God.  You will always be.  You protected him.  You kept him safe.  The name of the Lord is a strong tower...the righteous run in and are saved.  I THANK YOU that you are able to protect and preserve.

the attack of the enemy is becoming sharper and fiercer because we are becoming more powerful.  we know more about his plans and schemes and more importantly, we have the KNOWLEDGE & understanding that we WIN.  the enemy is desperate, but the enemy LOSES.

i thank God that Ron had an opportunity to show the love of Christ...even in the midst of what some would consider unfortunate, he was able COUNT IT ALL JOY! 

i thank You God.  I THANK YOU!!!!! I THANK YOU!!!!!!

Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Thank you Father.  Bless your name.  Forever and ever.

Amen.

ok.  it's official.  i freaking MISS Ronald Dwayne Simms, Jr.  

is Sunday here yet?

let me go pray.

definitely missing Ghana right now...definitely.

what is it about rainy days...

you either love them or you don't, right?

i just found out that my student teacher will not be recommended for a permanent position at Mastery.  a part of me felt that it's my fault.  they placed a student teacher with a proficient teacher.  well, according to Mastery's standards i'm proficient at a few things and advanced at others...which makes me a proficient teacher.

i guess. 

as the time winds down before i resume full teaching responsibility,  i'm starting to get that feeling in my stomach again.  that "ugh" feeling.  that feeling that questions, "is this REALLY what i'm going to be doing for the rest of my life?"

i've started staring out of the window again.

i'm not quite comfortable with that feeling. 

and i know that God wants me to be content with where He has me right now.  i know i'm here for a reason....whether or not i can discern that reason...now that's another story.

God, what am i even good at?

*stares blankly into space*

look at her.  she has the right heart.  she definitely has the right attitude.  she's just super awkward.  she'll get a job though.  i know she will.  i know she will.

as for me.  i think i'll take some pics today...play with my new flash.  yup.  that's exactly what i'll do.