you said blessed are those who hunger and thirst after righteousness for they shall be filled.
seek ye first the kindom of heaven and all its righteousness and everything else will be added unto you.
Father, I repent right now if I’ve put an anything out of order or out of place. Father, help me get back in right standing with you. change my mind. My thoughts. My intentions. My desires. Conform my will to yours oh Lord.
My dreams have been very vivid….very crazy….i woke up this morning from one…it was about the wedding.
I dreamed that I was slated to marry my assistant principal, a woman. Walking down the aisle I heard the Holy Spirit with fierceness saying “Don’t. Do. It.” and yet because I wanted to keep up appearances, I walked down the aisle. I think I would up marrying her in the dream but immediately afterwards, when we were taking pictures (on some sort of yacht like the spirit of Philadelphia), I told her I didn’t really want to marry her. She got mad, her father got mad…said they’d invested all of this money and time into the event. I was so busy being selfish and worrying about myself that they said I didn’t care about anything or anyone else. Wow. I’d invited friends from all over the country and didn’t even go around to apologize to guests. There was even a friend there that I’d raved and spent so much time during the engagement process praising her name…and I didn’t even realize she didn’t come. All that money spent on caterers and the food was terrible. It turned into more of a drunken cookout than a wedding reception. It was truly wild. TRULY WILD.
God, help me to get rid of my selfish ways. What are things to you? What is money to you? you created all things…and you created me…..you are marvelous…above every situation and above every circumstance.
Father…please forgive me for my selfishness…for my lack of patience….for my lack of gratitude in even the smallest things….God, it is my desire to be in right standing with you. Forgive me for my sinful and fleshly desires Lord…my sexual desires…Lord forgive me…for the thoughts that go through my head….Holy Spirit…please….take over…please…please…please…please…please…
Please.
Let me decrease so that you can increase through me. Pastor Reg reminded us on Sunday that all you need is a body and mind…both willing to be used by you. take my mind and transform it…I will wash my mind in your Word deliberately….so that it’s infused with something different. Every time I feel like acting on a sinful passion or desire…I’ll pray…you said pray without ceasing….pray always and don’t faint….keep yourself in the love of God and pray in the Holy Spirit….Father right now, I humble myself…I turn from my wicked ways and I pray to you God….
God, you will provide. You supply all of my riches. I pray that you be glorified. What do you want out of me? What do you want out of this wedding? What do you want out of our marriage? What do you want out of my work performance? What do you want out of my daily walk? What do you want out of my thoughts? What do you want out of my prayer life? what do you want?
Holiness.
Simple.
Wash me once again, then. Fill me once again with your precious Holy Ghost. Fill me. Fill me so that what’s been contaminated will no longer dilute the pure presence of your Holy Ghost.
In the dream….Ron was there….a second part…maybe an interlude…we were driving in a car….he asked me…
“Coke, what do you think about that?”
“About what?”
“6 weeks…prayer intensive. At least one hour a day?”
And the selfish part of me rose up again. Of course I mumbled it was ok, but in my heart I was like, “It really don’t take all that…”.
Wow. Wow. Wow. Wow.
God, forgive me if I’m being an impediment to your servant. I repent right now from ever causing Ronald to get of course or off track. Help me to love him with an unselfish heart. Help me to love him wholly….not just body and physical… but soul love.
You say…”If you want to know how to truly love him…you must first love me.”
Your love doesn’t hurt. It isn’t selfish. It isn’t self-seeking…it isn’t vain…it isn’t painful…it isn’t out for pleasure…or vengeance…it gives…it gives…it nurtures….
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 14:3-7
Where I am lacking your perfect love….give it to me. Please.
For that is your perfect will…that I walk in love….with all men…not just my future husband, but with every person….that show forth your love that you showed me. That I be kind…merciful…good…patient. Forgive me God. Forgive me. Please.
I ask all of these things in Jesus’ name.
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