the book that Deac. Annell gave to me requires me to journal about my past sexual experiences....the myths that i've interpreted as truths along the way during my life's journey about sex, sexual sin and immorality....lies the enemy told me which ensnared me and kept me captive.

but i know that i am no longer bound to the law of sin and death...rather, it's the law of the spirit...that very same spirit which is working in me and growing in me...that has the power to nullify the former....

Thank you Jesus.

it's cathartic, in a sense, to write down thoughts....revisit the past...dig through the muck and mire to finally arrive at the truth.

some entries i will make public...some i will not...in the end, i know that i and we will be better for it.  a part of our prayer during this time of fasting is that God prepares us for marriage....part of our vision is that we remain celibate.  this means we cannot give into temptation...nor can we play with fire....can a man take fire into his bosom and not be burned?

ha.  rhetorical questioning.  of course we know the answer.

i thank you God that i will be able to walk down the aisle towards my husband without spot or blemish in your eyes because you are a God of restoration and you make all things new.

so as i crucify this natural flesh...crucify also those lustful and sinful desires in me.

in Jesus' name I ask.  amen.

bless You.

YC