You said you would never leave me, nor would you forsake me.

Sigh.

I wont say I feel lonely...

But I do feel like the closest friend ive had all of my life isnt here to help me celebrate.

So I try to compensate and fill in the gap with other things and other people but the counterfeit just aint real.

I don't want to go corset shopping or shoe shopping by myself or with my.fiancee.

I want my best friend back.

Sigh.