I think I can hear myself breaking inside....

I suppose it's a good thing....

I don't want to be around people much lately....

No, don't ask me how I'm feeling because "like shit" might just be my response.

I am angry.  I am disappointed.  I am fearful.

And no, I don't want a Bible verse right now.

And yes, I know Jesus is the answer for the world today.

And I still want to be selfish. And I still want to travel the world.  And I still want to have my own money with my own bank account and not have to worry about how my bills and debt are going to be paid.

And yes, that's probably why this is so hard.  Because I'm stubborn as hell.

And yes,  this pregnancy is right on time because there is no other way He can get out of me what He wants if I don't do this....right now.

Le sigh.

Bro-ken.

Bro-ken.