candles....
dim lighting...
glow....
low, soothing music...
dancing by myself...or maybe with you to a slow groove in the kitchen....
little moments just to enjoy life.
when my head can fall back and my mouth open...teeth exposed...not a care in the world.
29 August 2014
27 August 2014
we are living in the last days...
but it's not like that....
living in the last days before baby simms comes...and our lives are completely changed forever.
living in the last days of...
-being able to sleep in
-being able to stay up...just because we want to
-being able to get up and go without thinking about someone else
-being able to only think about ourselves
as much as possible, i'm trying to take advantage of these last days now....
next week, i'm treating myself to a manicure and pedicure...i'd like a massage but we'll see how that goes. if i could, i'd buy some new clothes...but the way my belly is set up right now, it's not even worth it lol.
these are the last days of sitting in starbucks for hours on end and doing work.
these are the last days of hopping in the car and driving down to maryland just because we feel like it.
these are the last days of having no children.
here's to the rest of our lives....
we haven't seen our best days yet.
living in the last days before baby simms comes...and our lives are completely changed forever.
living in the last days of...
-being able to sleep in
-being able to stay up...just because we want to
-being able to get up and go without thinking about someone else
-being able to only think about ourselves
as much as possible, i'm trying to take advantage of these last days now....
next week, i'm treating myself to a manicure and pedicure...i'd like a massage but we'll see how that goes. if i could, i'd buy some new clothes...but the way my belly is set up right now, it's not even worth it lol.
these are the last days of sitting in starbucks for hours on end and doing work.
these are the last days of hopping in the car and driving down to maryland just because we feel like it.
these are the last days of having no children.
here's to the rest of our lives....
we haven't seen our best days yet.
18 August 2014
the things i'm learning in this wife life...
i don't always have to have the last word.
i don't always have to say something.
being meek, gentle, humble, and quiet is WAY more effective then saying and doing the most. too much energy wasted.
every time i purpose myself to be meek, gentle, humble and quiet...please beleeeeeee that is the same instance where the enemy will have my husband say or do something that makes me want to go jsnon'sgnsdgkbs'g[nsgnjskdgndnNIGGAomdfksmgknsgsngsngsngsklngs. yup. happens EVERY time.
just more proof that we really don't wrestle against flesh and blood but against evil powers and principalities and spiritual wickedness in high places. seems like Satan HATES the power and the unity that comes out of Godly marriage. i believe he has imps specifically assigned to snuff out marriage and break those unions.
if there's a problem, i can be proactive about it and fix it myself, instead of criticizing my husband.
if there's a problem, i shouldn't always be so hesitant and harbor it either. i'm still finding that delicate balance of discernment to know when to address it with my husband, when to shut my mouth and do it myself, and when to simply take it to the Holy Ghost in prayer.
it is truly not good for man to be alone.
i am my husband's helper. this means, for all of his prowess in other areas, i carry a certain strength that he does not possess. God joined us together so that i could help him. it is my responsibility to determine how to do this and to act on it.
words are very powerful. they are seeds that can bear sweet or bitter fruit. i must be very careful how i use them.
little nuggets...each and every day.
i have underestimated my husband in alot of ways. i never thought i did, but my thoughts have clearly manifested in my actions towards him. this weekend, listening to him talk about his plans and dreams, watching him interact with other men, i realized how wrong i have been. i had to repent.
my husband is a unicorn. lol.
we have both changed tremendously since we first met each other in 2006. we have both changed tremendously since we were engaged....since we were married. there's so much more growth in store.
i am REALLY in love with my husband (but i already knew this tee hee hee). it gives me a great joy that i can't explain when i can please him and meet his needs, not just physically, but in every aspect.
i need a special grace to be his wife and truly reverence him as my one and only husband.
YS
i don't always have to say something.
being meek, gentle, humble, and quiet is WAY more effective then saying and doing the most. too much energy wasted.
every time i purpose myself to be meek, gentle, humble and quiet...please beleeeeeee that is the same instance where the enemy will have my husband say or do something that makes me want to go jsnon'sgnsdgkbs'g[nsgnjskdgndnNIGGAomdfksmgknsgsngsngsngsklngs. yup. happens EVERY time.
just more proof that we really don't wrestle against flesh and blood but against evil powers and principalities and spiritual wickedness in high places. seems like Satan HATES the power and the unity that comes out of Godly marriage. i believe he has imps specifically assigned to snuff out marriage and break those unions.
if there's a problem, i can be proactive about it and fix it myself, instead of criticizing my husband.
if there's a problem, i shouldn't always be so hesitant and harbor it either. i'm still finding that delicate balance of discernment to know when to address it with my husband, when to shut my mouth and do it myself, and when to simply take it to the Holy Ghost in prayer.
it is truly not good for man to be alone.
i am my husband's helper. this means, for all of his prowess in other areas, i carry a certain strength that he does not possess. God joined us together so that i could help him. it is my responsibility to determine how to do this and to act on it.
words are very powerful. they are seeds that can bear sweet or bitter fruit. i must be very careful how i use them.
little nuggets...each and every day.
i have underestimated my husband in alot of ways. i never thought i did, but my thoughts have clearly manifested in my actions towards him. this weekend, listening to him talk about his plans and dreams, watching him interact with other men, i realized how wrong i have been. i had to repent.
my husband is a unicorn. lol.
we have both changed tremendously since we first met each other in 2006. we have both changed tremendously since we were engaged....since we were married. there's so much more growth in store.
i am REALLY in love with my husband (but i already knew this tee hee hee). it gives me a great joy that i can't explain when i can please him and meet his needs, not just physically, but in every aspect.
i need a special grace to be his wife and truly reverence him as my one and only husband.
YS
13 August 2014
12 August 2014
By faith, Yvonne gave up an Assistant Director position at a nationally-renowned charter school to become....
fill in the blank because that part I'm not even sure about...
By faith Moses' parents put him in a basket and hid him from the Egyptians who were killing Hebrew boys....did they know what was to come of their child?
By faith, God told Abraham to leave him home and he did....did Abraham know what he was going to face? Did he know how God was going to test him again and again? I wonder if Abraham ever got scared? I wonder if, when laying awake at night, he tossed and turned, eventually crying out to God..."what am i doing?" Or was Abraham just that gangsta that he just believed God? Was Abraham not human? The Bible says he staggered not at the promises of God. What does it mean to stagger not at the promises of God? Does it mean that you never EVER raise your eyebrow and question..."ummm God, what's going on here?" Is there no room for that? Obviously he kept going and obtained the promises. However comma, I want to hear those deep intimate conversations that Abraham had with God, late in the midnight hour when crap was looking real dismal.
God, what have you promised me? Joy. Peace....the two of which I don't have much of right now.
All those issues I thought I'd quelled before...all of the anxiety I thought I'd settled before came rushing back this morning.
You said leave....I'm leaving...
launching out into the very very very deep.
i can't go back. that's not an option at this point. on the outside looking in, i know people think i am REALLY stupid. i know it. some mornings i wake up and feel really stupid. i'm not a stupid person and i know this is the enemy's way of casting fear and doubt into my mind.
so i have to hold on to my faith and not my fear of the unknown.
"looking unto Jesus who is the author and the finisher of my faith"
"that my faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God"
Pastor Thomas said to me on Sunday...
"You're not going down, you're going up"
"Cast all of your cares on Him"
"He's preparing you"
"Your annointing is yours, not your husband's"
"Your ears are being opened"
God, you are not the author of confusion....so where I am confused, give me understanding and insight.
God, you have not given me fear, but love, power, and a sound mind.
God, your righteous ones shall live by faith.
God, my faith shall not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
God, you are not a man that you should lie, nor the son of man that you should repent.
God, you know the plans you have for me. They are to give me a hope and a future..
God, you love me with an everlasting love.
God, you are my shepherd and I shall not want for anything at all. You lead me beside still waters, you make me lie down in green pastures. You lead me down the path of righteousness for your name. Even though I walk through the valley where the shadows of death hover over me, I don't have anything to fear because you're always with me. It's your guidance and your correction and the knowing that you care enough to lead me which gives me comfort. You annoint my head with oil. You prepare a table of abundance before me in the presence of my enemies. My cup is running over. Surely it is your goodness and your mercy that shall follow me all of the days of my life (including today) and I shall dwell in the house of The Lord forever.
God, they that wait upon The Lord shall renew their strength. So I wait on you today Lord, because you are my strength and there is no other resource for it besides you.
fill in the blank because that part I'm not even sure about...
By faith Moses' parents put him in a basket and hid him from the Egyptians who were killing Hebrew boys....did they know what was to come of their child?
By faith, God told Abraham to leave him home and he did....did Abraham know what he was going to face? Did he know how God was going to test him again and again? I wonder if Abraham ever got scared? I wonder if, when laying awake at night, he tossed and turned, eventually crying out to God..."what am i doing?" Or was Abraham just that gangsta that he just believed God? Was Abraham not human? The Bible says he staggered not at the promises of God. What does it mean to stagger not at the promises of God? Does it mean that you never EVER raise your eyebrow and question..."ummm God, what's going on here?" Is there no room for that? Obviously he kept going and obtained the promises. However comma, I want to hear those deep intimate conversations that Abraham had with God, late in the midnight hour when crap was looking real dismal.
God, what have you promised me? Joy. Peace....the two of which I don't have much of right now.
All those issues I thought I'd quelled before...all of the anxiety I thought I'd settled before came rushing back this morning.
You said leave....I'm leaving...
launching out into the very very very deep.
i can't go back. that's not an option at this point. on the outside looking in, i know people think i am REALLY stupid. i know it. some mornings i wake up and feel really stupid. i'm not a stupid person and i know this is the enemy's way of casting fear and doubt into my mind.
so i have to hold on to my faith and not my fear of the unknown.
"looking unto Jesus who is the author and the finisher of my faith"
"that my faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God"
Pastor Thomas said to me on Sunday...
"You're not going down, you're going up"
"Cast all of your cares on Him"
"He's preparing you"
"Your annointing is yours, not your husband's"
"Your ears are being opened"
God, you are not the author of confusion....so where I am confused, give me understanding and insight.
God, you have not given me fear, but love, power, and a sound mind.
God, your righteous ones shall live by faith.
God, my faith shall not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
God, you are not a man that you should lie, nor the son of man that you should repent.
God, you know the plans you have for me. They are to give me a hope and a future..
God, you love me with an everlasting love.
God, you are my shepherd and I shall not want for anything at all. You lead me beside still waters, you make me lie down in green pastures. You lead me down the path of righteousness for your name. Even though I walk through the valley where the shadows of death hover over me, I don't have anything to fear because you're always with me. It's your guidance and your correction and the knowing that you care enough to lead me which gives me comfort. You annoint my head with oil. You prepare a table of abundance before me in the presence of my enemies. My cup is running over. Surely it is your goodness and your mercy that shall follow me all of the days of my life (including today) and I shall dwell in the house of The Lord forever.
God, they that wait upon The Lord shall renew their strength. So I wait on you today Lord, because you are my strength and there is no other resource for it besides you.
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