By faith, Yvonne gave up an Assistant Director position at a nationally-renowned charter school to become....

fill in the blank because that part I'm not even sure about...

By faith Moses' parents put him in a basket and hid him from the Egyptians who were killing Hebrew boys....did they know what was to come of their child?

By faith, God told Abraham to leave him home and he did....did Abraham know what he was going to  face?  Did he know how God was going to test him again and again?  I wonder if Abraham ever got scared?  I wonder if, when laying awake at night, he tossed and turned, eventually crying out to God..."what am i doing?"  Or was Abraham just that gangsta that he just believed God?  Was Abraham not human?  The Bible says he staggered not at the promises of God.  What does it mean to stagger not at the promises of God?  Does it mean that you never EVER raise your eyebrow and question..."ummm God, what's going on here?"  Is there no room for that?  Obviously he kept going and obtained the promises.  However comma, I want to hear those deep intimate conversations that Abraham had with God, late in the midnight hour when crap was looking real dismal.

God, what have you promised me?  Joy.  Peace....the two of which I don't have much of right now.

All those issues I thought I'd quelled before...all of the anxiety I thought I'd settled before came rushing back this morning.

You said leave....I'm leaving...

launching out into the very very very deep.

i can't go back.  that's not an option at this point.  on the outside looking in, i know people think i am REALLY stupid.  i know it.  some mornings i wake up and feel really stupid.  i'm not a stupid person and i know this is the enemy's way of casting fear and doubt into my mind.

so i have to hold on to my faith and not my fear of the unknown.

"looking unto Jesus who is the author and the finisher of my faith"

"that my faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God"

Pastor Thomas said to me on Sunday...

"You're not going down, you're going up"
"Cast all of your cares on Him"
"He's preparing you"
"Your annointing is yours, not your husband's"
"Your ears are being opened"

God, you are not the author of confusion....so where I am confused, give me understanding and insight.

God, you have not given me fear, but love, power, and a sound mind.

God, your righteous ones shall live by faith.

God, my faith shall not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.

God, you are not a man that you should lie, nor the son of man that you should repent.

God, you know the plans you have for me.  They are to give me a hope and a future..

God, you love me with an everlasting love.

God, you are my shepherd and I shall not want for anything at all.  You lead me beside still waters, you make me lie down in green pastures.  You lead me down the path of righteousness for your name.  Even though I walk through the valley where the shadows of death hover over me, I don't have anything to fear because you're always with me.  It's your guidance and your correction and the knowing that you care enough to lead me which gives me comfort.  You annoint my head with oil.  You prepare a table of abundance before me in the presence of my enemies.  My cup is running over. Surely it is your goodness and your mercy that shall follow me all of the days of my life (including today) and I shall dwell in the house of The Lord forever.

God, they that wait upon The Lord shall renew their strength.  So I wait on you today Lord, because you are my strength and there is no other resource for it besides you.