"don't you know that faith is practical
that's what makes it so wonderful
you gotta believe...."-- from "Here We Go" by Aja Graydon Dantler of Kindred the Family Soul

i woke up this morning refreshed if you will.  more so silent than anything else.  just listening.  trying to hear for the voice of God which is usually quiet, and still.  amazing how the same one who literally has moved major landforms (you know, like rivers and stuff), speaks so quietly.

so i just listened.  i talked first with honesty.  i told Him that i don't know what i'm doing.  He told me that's ok.

He told me that i've been doing this faith thing all wrong...backwards if you will.  trying and trying and trying until i couldn't do it myself AND then relying upon God as a last resort is not faith.  faith is the first step.  it's natural and not coerced.  it's a state of mind.  it's an automatic response or reaction to unknown circumstances.

He told me that is why He said, "the just shall live by faith" and to "walk by faith and not by sight."  no one thinks about living...we just do.  i'm not counting my breaths as i breathe them...it just happens because that is what i was meant to do.  i don't think about the steps i take as i walk.  i am not looking down and counting the cracks on the sidewalk or tracking how many steps i take in the day.  i just get up and go, knowing that my legs will get me there.  the same with faith, He told me.  faith is natural and not coerced.  it's not a last resort.  it's the first resort.  it's the automatic response to apply to every situation.

believing God is in every situation and circumstance, despite being unable to see it.  if i could see it, i suppose it wouldn't be faith.

walking is easy.  living is just what i do.  faith is....

so i guess i've received the answer to an earlier post's questions about abraham, wondering if he ever waivered or doubted.  he didn't.  he just had faith.