perplexed but not in despair....

that's the Word to meditate upon....

yes, some things hurt like hell....but i have to keep pushing, even though i don't like it.

can't default and draw back.  in that You take no pleasure.

and even though i'm angry, God, i'm asking you to remove the anger.

and even though i'm hurt, God, i'm asking you to remove the hurt.

and even though i'm perplexed, God, i'm asking you to give me understanding and wisdom.

and even though i feel like i'm all alone, God, i'm remembering that You said You would never leave me or forsake me.

when no one understands, You understand.

when i feel invisible, You see me.

You know my name.  You knew me from my mother's womb.  You said You would never leave me or forsake me.  You know all of the plans that You have for me.  They are plans for my good and not for evil.  You know every hair on my head.  Jesus, You're sitting at the right hand of the Father making intercession for me because You have felt all that I have felt.  The chastisement of my peace was upon You and by Your stripes I am healed.