they are new every morning....renewed every morning...great is Thy faithfulness...oh Lord.

great is Thy faithfulness.

God....sometimes i just have to say God.

God.

My God.

i believe it is about 52 degrees in my classroom.  no lie at all.  the bell just rang.  i just started this entry.  a quiet day on the homefront.

and i'm praying always, with all types of prayers....

never giving up on my prayers....

knowing that when the enemy comes in the like a flood, the Lord will lift up a standards.

thank you Lord.

thank you.

yes.

the answer is yes.

who is to really know what it will be like a year from now?  five. ten.  the fifty we've asked for.

who is to really know?

because life will happen quickly.

and each moment will be a piece of memory that we'll want to hang onto...

as we celebrate the moments we're in.

and the past,

which is now

will seem distant

while the future comes all too soon

every moment 

every hour

every second

every day of my life

i am yours.

and in the moment

when we touch

in the morning, so in love....

breathing you in and holding your frame

i remember that soon will come the time to let go

and all but the memory will remain

oh my love, let's not let time's raging speed ravish our instances together

hold fast to your presence, the distant now...we're together

because yesterday, we said we'd have forever.

but we lied to ourselves, forever is never

so the clock ticks on and our bond won't sever

and we both live on in the memory of this

eternal

love.

i realize how much time i spend looking at other people's work. other people's style. other people's lives... not realizing and being thankful for the life that i have lived...and knowing that the life i'm going to live will be 10 times more amazing because of the grace and favor God has bestowed upon me.

 i have less than seven months (yesterday made it official) until i marry the LOVE OF MY LIFE.

 i am laying the foundation and putting in the work to live one of my biggest dreams as a successful, full-time photographer.

 i am looking forward to being an awesome wife and mother.

 i am sooooooooooo blessed to have a well-paying job and ALL of my needs met.

 i am growing each day in my relationship and walk with the Lord Jesus Christ. HALLELUJAH!!!!!!! praise be to God.

 You REIGN and to You belongs all of the glory, honor, dominion, and power. now and forever. Amen.

huh?

this morning has really been a blur.... this morning, around 2, my shoulder dislocated. briefly...a couple of seconds while i was asleep...enough to wake me up... i got up, saw ron's email to me....then, spent some time praying about whether the house was the right decision.... then i laid down.....and a few moments later...i felt something come over me...i was conscious....but i could not move....so if someone would have seen me, they would have thought that i was asleep....and i heard a voice saying something to me loud and clear...but i don't remember what it was....it was good... this morning at 5, i woke up to pray again....and read....asked God to help me remember what was said to me earlier in the morning....then i had a dream about the house...and strange lady in African garb came through the back entrance of the house...she actually opened up the door to the kitchen while we in there....i didn't like her presence....at all...her eyes....there was no pupil....just a black iris... and i heard...."this is the spirit of death in this house...." ummmmmmmmmmm......... i just wanted to go to sleep? so Lord...is this house good? is it bad? was that you talking to me earlier in the morning...was it something else???? He says..."settle yourself." ok. i'm settled.

this morning.

a renewed hope as i look unto Jesus....the author and the finisher of my faith. He who began a good work in me SHALL complete it. and for that...i am thankful. He just won't leave me hanging. thank you Lord.

there is such a longing...

there is such a longing in my soul...to do and be more than what i am doing and being now. i just remember that this is a stepping stone. there are things now that i'm enduring that are preparing me for the future. and i hold on to the prophecies. and i do my best not to complain or get disgruntled. today is a day that i am fighting apathy about teaching. bleh...it pays the bills. but i never just wanted a job that paid the bills. that's how i saw my father live my entire life...that's what i never said i would do. and now...i'm in this place. stuck? no...not stuck...because there is forward movement...just knowing that this isn't my end is the one thing that's propelling me forward. "you shall go back...."-Pastor Thomas all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.... i shall go back. the present sufferings of this world cannot compare to the future glory which will be revealed in me.... tribulation worketh patience... so let patience have it's perfect work....

honest conversations.

God. the closer i get to you...the more i realize how contrary this fleshly nature is to yours. because you desire truth on the inward parts...and in the hidden parts, you shall make me to know wisdom... clean out my heart...for it is desperately wicked...who can know it? create in a me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me. i am human...but your Spirit lives in me....more Spirit...less of me. for it is not I who am alive.... Lord...renew me in the spirit of my mind. wash my heart with your Word.... order my steps.... help me Lord. in Jesus' name. Yvonne