the demons assigned to me came to visit me in a dream last night.
food.
haughtiness and pride.
sex.
idolatry.
it was crazy. i'd rather not relive it.
the enemy doesn't want me to win.
that's too bad, because i already do. i have already overcome him by the blood of the lamb and by the word of my testimony.
i win. i WIN. i win! i win.
I WIN.
i think i went through Ron withdrawal yesterday. i have made him into an idol and i confess it. i have made this wedding into an idol and i confess it. i have made this thing and this person higher than God. some days i'll say i love you to Ron more than i say i love you to God.
not ok. i thank God for Ron but God is a constant. He doesn't change. He's the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. even when man fails me, God never will.
i picked up my book "The Excellent Wife" yesterday. much of being an excellent wife is examining myself and my motives...and my relationship with God. my heart should be set on Christ.
time to reset.
The book states, "An idol can be anything. It may even be a good thing. Bt if we want it so badly that we sin if we don't get it or sin to attain it, then we are worshopping an idol rather than Christ...Each of us is worshipping something or someone within our heart every waking moement of each day. Pastor Stuart Scott says that we worship what we 'serve, speak about, sacrifice for, seek afer, spend time and money on, and trust in," (See Psalm 115 and 135). In other words, who or what you worship is 'what's on your mind,' 'what you long for-wish for,' 'what is really important to you,' and 'what you have set your heart set on.'"
WOW.
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sigh, O Lord, my rock and my Redeemer.--Psalm 19:14
my heart must be set upon You. not things. not people.
seek ye first the Kingdom of God....seek the Kingdom of God first....go after it....seek it...long after it...pursue it...go for it...nothing else...
nothing else.
nothing else.
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