this is a draft from a few weeks ago....

deac annell told me to envision the wedding i could have if money wasn't an issue.

it would be outside.  sun setting. 
perfect day.  75 the high.  no humidity.  a very gentle breeze blowing through the trees. 

simple but elegant decorations.  beautiful flowers adorning the chairs and the altar.
no drama between my family or friends.  ronald looking oh-so-handsome...both of us failing at holding back tears because we can't believe the day is finally here.

i imagine serenity.  a peaceful calm all over me...my skin glowing...calm music....everyone feels comfortable...there's an atmosphere of love and anticipation because our friends and families have been waiting to see us this happy for a long time....

music...the service would be filled with nice music....perfect songs which captured the way we felt about each other....

simple elegance.  that's how i imagine it.

the reception would feature LOTS of laughter....GREAT FOOD....GREAT FOOD IS A MUST! and great music again.

i just want people, when they leave, to KNOW the love that's between us and the love we have for God...and the love God has for us.  i want it to be unmistakable that God is in the midst of us.

nothing too over the top.  simple.  elegant.  good food.  nice breeze.  God.

as i was looking through wedding reception sites again today, i started to get a bit overwhelmed.  there's so much out there but nothing quite fits my taste. 

Holy Spirt, i pray that you would lead us and guide us in the correct direction that will display your full glory through us.  i bind the spirit of anxiety and stress.  i pray that you will meet every need according to your riches in glory...

i declare and decree that this will be the BEST day of our lives thus far and that it will mark the beginning of our fruitful and bountiful union that God has put together.

i will not stress.  i will have peace.  i will have joy.  He will do what He said He would do.  He will display His glory.  He will provide.  He will make it wonderful.  He will lead us.  i will not stress.

the Lord is my shepherd i shall not want
i will lift up mine eyes to the hills from whence cometh my help...my help cometh from the Lord.